Here we go....Again....

Well, 2015 is here and like many other January's I have resolved that this will be my year.  This will the year that I lose weight, get healthy and stay positive.  This is the year that I will enjoy life more, stress less and make good decisions.  This is the year that I will be more active, take time for myself and NOT feel guilty.  This is the year that I won't give up.  And, yet, I made these resolutions 2 weeks ago and still feel stalled out.  I have no idea WHY I can't make these changes stick (other than the fact that all change is DIFFICULT).  I picked up a copy of People Magazine the other day and read all of the "I lost half my body weight" stories and thought "Now why can't I do this?"  I mean, I certainly don't need to lose half my body weight - a good 20-25 pounds would do.  Which then makes me think it should be easier than losing half of my body weight.  And, yet, here I sit, struggling and complaining and wishing things were different.  

This is why I have decided to blog about my struggle journey.  Nothing in life comes easy and I certainly know that.  I survived an unhealthy marriage in my early 20's, went back to school to get my teaching degree in my late 30's with 3 elementary school aged daughters and have battled the smaller struggles of that so many of us deal with daily (marriage, kids, money).  I just pray that I am able to find my way this year.  

Some of you may wonder if I'm following a specific plan or program.  Well, yes and no.  I have signed up for local weight loss program that offers weigh-ins and support.  I also use Isagenix casually (I keep shake packets at school for days when I "forget" to eat breakfast or pack a lunch).  I have tried other things, but nothing really clicked with me.  I will be using my Fitbit One and the My Fitness Pal app and the Bible (Zechariah 4:6 "So he said to me, “This is the word of the Lord to Zerubbabel: ‘Not by might nor by power, but by my Spirit,’ says the Lord Almighty.")